Your much more than a teacher figure, your someone that has always been there for me, at times not even knowing it was you. You are one of the only people that has truly seen me at my worst, and still You love me. With You I never have to act like someone else, You know me better than I do, and I know I will always be loved. I might disappoint, but with You I am always forgiven. In John 3:16, it’s said that You sacrificed your only son, for my sins. That alone leaves me humble, knowing You understand that we are not perfect beings, but to sacrifice your son for us? Your much more than a teacher figure, you’re a protector, lover and fighter.
You were my light in that dark tunnel I found myself stuck in, not too long ago. I remember talking to You from an early age, but I guess at times I felt I was talking more to myself then You. It wasn’t until the summer of my junior year of high school that I truly knew You. That summer I was in such bad shape emotionally I often felt like giving up. Sadly the only reason I didn’t do anything stupid was my fear of pain. So instead I threw myself in to You and the church. I think that was the best thing I’ve ever done for myself. I will never forget the day that I finally realized if I wanted my life to change, I had to stop living for me, and live for You. I remember sitting on my bed, tears gliding down my face, wondering how did my life get so out of hand. The radio was on when the radio host said “And now for the number one hit song by Rush of Fools, this is Undo.” I slowly started to listen to the lyrics, but this part is what really caught me;
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You’re the only one who can undo
What I've become
This was the moment when I realized that it was through You that I can wipe away the old and start anew. I knew then I did have support from others who loved me, and with them by my side, I found I can make it through. Later that summer I was baptized, and it was because of You. I finally understood everything You were trying to tell me. I know I am no Jesus, but maybe I don’t have to be. And for that alone I thank you. My teacher figure, father, friend, protector and God.